08 Mar

I Am Supported

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Eleven weeks post-surgery and it has been, and will continue to be, a long and adventurous journey of healing and self-discovery. I have to admit there has been good days and challenging days since December 18th, and I feel I have come through many stages of perception and self-inquiry.

My first stage was one of, “will I ever practice yoga again?” Then, “when will I practice yoga again?” To, “this is my practice of yoga?!” And, “this is my practice and it is making me stronger.” And now, “this is my practice and I am right where I need to be!”

Throughout the last eleven weeks I have come face to face with myself many times but the one thing I know deep in my heart, with every fiber of my being, is that I am supported. Not only supported by my family and friends, but by my practice. Not just the physical practice … but my devotion and dedication to come to my mat every day! To be still, to move in quietness, to listen and accept where I am and how I am feeling in the moment. To learn forgiveness and acceptance. To breathe.

I have always been supported. Supported by the practice of yoga. Yoga is more than the physical movements … it is a lifestyle. Yoga is not about the perfecting the physical postures but rather using them to understand and transform ourselves.

I have since graduated from the support of my chair and yet have never felt more supported in my life!

Much Love & Gratitude,
Marlene

Namaste ~ “I honour the place in you where the entire Universe resides. I honour the place of love, of light, of truth, of peace. I honour the place within you where if you are in that place in you and I am in that place in me, there is only one of us.”

~Ram Dass~

Marlene Weller (YogaMar) is a firm believer that yoga is a lifestyle that can help us in all areas of life. She is a certified yoga instructor teaching yoga classes at the the Rutland Activity Centre, The Women’s Place as well as at her private studio in her hOMe in Kelowna, BC

09 Feb

Grateful for the Assistance of a Friend

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Determined to make the most of my “down time”, I decide to make my dream come true and build my own website. After all, when I am teaching 7 classes/week and managing a Peschool/Daycare/Out of School Club Centre, I barely have time to dream of a website, never mind build one! This was the perfect time. I am confined to my couch and no where to go! But where do I start?!

I start by asking people I know, who are more computer literate than myself, questions about website building and discover that I have to choose a domain name, website provider and download a few programs. Sounds pretty straight forward. First I watch a “How to Build a Website” video and then begin the daunting task of building a website.

I quickly discover that I am not at all prepared for building a website. No professional pics, logo/branding, marketing strategy etc. As determined as I started out, I came to a screeching halt! I mean, I know in my mind what I want it to look like and how I want people to feel when they read it, and what I wish to offer, I’m just not sure how to bring it to fruition. Only one thing left to do … ask for help.

Asking for help has not always been easy for me. I generally make my own way, doing my own thing. Reluctantly and rather humbly, I call up a dear old friend, Alexandra Krieger of MAKBIZ Ventures, someone who is extremely knowledgeable in this field and asked her for assistance in designing a logo. Alex sends along a design that I had in mind. Perfect, I will work with that. I spent an entire day making my best effort to create a logo with the design. Only to end the day in the same place I started … without a logo.

During my conversation with Alex she inquired what I would be doing with the design. I explained that I am building my own website and wanted to make a logo for myself. Alex, being inquisitive Alex, asks if I would mind if she had a look at what I’ve done so far. Of course, fully trusting and appreciating Alex’s expertise in Marketing and Website Design, I do not hesitate to share my “work in progress…my labour of love”.

My faith and trust that we always have and attract just what we need in any given moment of our lives was reinforced that day! Alex was kind enough to show me how to use the program I had downloaded to it’s fullest potential! She suggested that I take her online Marketing Course. Something I would not have dreamed of doing prior to our conversation and I was very impressed. The online course answered any questions I had, brought up questions that I had not thought of and was interactive and easy to follow.

After six weeks of labour (labour of love), I realize now that I could not have accomplished this project without the help of a friend. Alexandra Krieger was the answer to my prayer that day and I am grateful beyond words for her kind heart, expertise, and good sense of humour! Thank you Alex from the bottom of my heart!


Much Love & Gratitude,
Marlene

Namaste ~ “I honour the place in you where the entire Universe resides. I honour the place of love, of light, of truth, of peace. I honour the place within you where if you are in that place in you and I am in that place in me, there is only one of us.”

~Ram Dass~

Marlene Weller (YogaMar) is a firm believer that yoga is a lifestyle that can help us in all areas of life. She is a certified yoga instructor teaching yoga classes at the the Rutland Activity Centre, The Women’s Place as well as at her private studio in her hOMe in Kelowna, BC

 

27 Jan

My Recovery – Healing Myself

IMG_0659The space where I practice looks much different these days … a chair for support and a cushion for comfort. The time I spend in that space has been modified … my asana, my pranayama, mantra and meditation are all focused on healing. Healing myself.

I normally extend my practice and meditation as an offering. Offering to others’ health, well-being and happiness. For the betterment of others and the world around us.

Five weeks post surgery and my asana practice is a few supported standing asanas, basic pranayama and meditation. My mantra is about my own health and well-being. Repeating 108 times, over and over again, for my own health and well-being?!?! At first this practice seemed so counter productive. Not from a place of service but of a place of selfishness. Me. Me. Me. I. I. I.

This mornings practice brought it to light for me. Or can I say, “I saw the light”?? Or connected to the Divine?? Whatever it is for you, I found clarity.

When I sit in that place of gratitude I find peace and joy. It is in that place of gratitude that I feel grounded. It is in that place of gratitude that I find strength, courage, compassion and acceptance. It is in that place of gratitude that I have integrity. It is in that place of gratitude that I find love and kindness; wisdom and clarity. It is in that place of gratitude that I find ME! And it is when I am my true AUTHENTIC SELF that I have something to offer YOU!

Much Love & Gratitude,
Marlene

Namaste ~ “I honour the place in you where the entire Universe resides. I honour the place of love, of light, of truth, of peace. I honour the place within you where if you are in that place in you and I am in that place in me, there is only one of us.” ~Ram Dass~

Marlene Weller (YogaMar) is a firm believer that yoga is a lifestyle that can help us in all areas of life. She is a certified yoga instructor teaching yoga classes at the the Rutland Activity Centre, The Women’s Place as well as at her private studio in her hOMe in Kelowna, BC.

16 Jan

My Recovery – Breath of Fresh Air

yogamar-katieMy first walk outside since December the 18th. It was a big deal getting dressed and putting on warm clothes to be outside. In fact, bending over to put on my boots was a bit of a workout in itself! Hat, scarf, jacket, boots and mitts.

Katie, my four-legged loyal friend, who has been literally glued to my side since I returned home from the hospital, awaits her turn to be leashed and begin our trek into the great outdoors. Ok, so a shuffle around the block that required a nap when I was done, may not have been the great outdoors, however it felt great to be outdoors.

To breath the cool fresh air, and see all that snow! Closing my eyes to breath it all in. To listen to every sound. Mindfully, one foot in front of the other. Connecting to the earth…connecting to Mother Nature. I found myself methodically chanting and breathing in the goodness around me. Mental notes of gratitude began to fill my mind and over flow my heart.

It may not have been the great outdoors, and I may not have some radically adventurous story to tell about climbing the highest mountain, or propelling down the side of a cliff, but I was outside. I was breathing, moving and being thankful. That is the practice of yoga.

Much Love & Gratitude,
Marlene

Namaste ~ “I honour the place in you where the entire Universe resides. I honour the place of love, of light, of truth, of peace. I honour the place within you where if you are in that place in you and I am in that place in me, there is only one of us.”
~Ram Dass~

Marlene Weller (YogaMar) is a firm believer that yoga is a lifestyle that can help us in all areas of life. She is a certified yoga instructor teaching yoga classes at the the Rutland Activity Centre, The Women’s Place as well as at her private studio in her hOMe in Kelowna, BC.

08 Jan

My Recovery – My Feet Touch the Mat

yogamar-recovery-1December 18, 2014, I had surgery.  Recovery is SLOW!!!  Of course my mind wants to be everywhere but here and yet my body says “this is where you are”.  I’ve had a few minor set backs but am now moving forward.  Yeah!  I feel very blessed to have my Yoga Teacher guiding me along in my healing process.  She has so generously offered her knowledge and expertise, time and kindness to me over the next year.  I am humbled.   Yes, from a Yogic perspective, I will not be doing the full Ashtanga primary series (1st) and absolutely none of the Intermediate (2nd) series for a full year.  This is not to say that I will not be practicing yoga at all, just practicing with internal healing, awareness and focus.  A therapeutic perspective.

At first I was disappointed with her recommendations.  No deep breathing, no sitting cross-legged and next to no physical activity for the most part.  My practice is simple:   meditation, foot awareness and standing upright for now.  It didn’t take me long to decide that that was enough!

My bare feet stepped onto my mat for the first time in three weeks!  I was sitting gingerly on a chair mind you, but none the less my heart felt the oasis.  A place for me to become all of me.  It is like stepping onto a mirror.  No judgment, no criticism, just self-reflection.  There is no other place I’d rather be!  It seems to know where I am going long before I do!  It felt like “coming hOMe”.

Three weeks post surgery and I met with the surgeon this morning.  He gave me the okay to begin “light walking”.  However, I am not to do any other physical activity for another three weeks!  Yikes!  I feel like I have done nothing but stare at the ceiling for three weeks already!  Crisis or Opportunity?
Perhaps I can turn my light walking into a “meditation walk”?!  Really mindfully placing my feet with each step. After all, how often do we go through life unaware of how we move through life?!   I have more time to continue to build my new YogaMar website!  To work on the workshops I wish to offer this year!  Opportunity it is!  An opportunity to refine myself. To really experience and cultivate an understanding of yoga from a healing perspective.  It is a beginning of a New Year and a beginning of a New Me!  Oh what an Opportunity!!

Much Love & Gratitude,
Marlene

Namaste ~ “I honour the place in you where the entire Universe resides. I honour the place of love, of light, of truth, of peace. I honour the place within you where if you are in that place in you and I am in that place in me, there is only one of us.”~Ram Dass~

Marlene Weller (YogaMar) is a firm believer that yoga is a lifestyle that can help us in all areas of life. She is a certified yoga instructor teaching yoga classes at the the Rutland Activity Centre, The Women’s Place as well as at her private studio in her hOMe in Kelowna, BC.